Friday, January 18, 2013

Unconditional Love Shines Through the Darkness


Year after year I watch us all venture on the most important path to our heart, and on the way we take so many detours when doubt and fear seems to creep up through the crevices of our minds. We forget, maybe only for a moment, that God is our constant companion. When we take the road without following our hearts, we get lost in a world that could never give us what we truly want.

My life has brought me heartache, sickness, bankruptcy, divorce, betrayal, death of loved ones and so much more. All of it has helped to move me into this earth school to learn the lessons for my soul. Hard lessons about true love and commitment, and all of it was just the practice to prepare me for deeper lessons of the biggest test of my life: To love myself enough to listen to the voice of God within that loves my son from a place that is rooted in my most grounded place, my heart. Here within my being, I had to be present with all of my emotions that held me close in my commitment to truth. I had no choice but to be the one that followed spirit's lead to bring me the strength to tell the truth and nothing but the truth so help me God.

I was walking on shaky ground where I trembled in all of the uncomfortable fear of losing my son forever to addiction. I needed to be courageous in the eyes of honesty as I stayed within the container of spirit that held me with the strongest grip that never let go. I loved my son enough to let him go.

That's how God loves. To love someone enough to let that person go to uncover their own hearts even when you know that the choice is darkness. Even when you know you might lose that person forever. But when the love is greater than the fear, there is a strength that seems to take over as you step into your connection within where you trust that you are used as an instrument.

Being a mother we are bound to our children by an invisible cord that keeps us forever one. Many of our children are walking around trying to grow up and be responsible, yet their lives have been held back by the weakness they feel within because they truly do not believe that who they are is enough. They have learned to plug into the world for their strength and along the way have self-medicated with anything that could provide a temporary fix to instill a feeling of rightness. Who did they learn this from? It was us, of course, and how easy it is to blame ourselves? How hard it is to face the truth that here we have only one choice but to let go and let God take over because our job is to trust in a higher power that knows more than we will ever know.

To let go is to truly love like never before as we watch our children move into their darkest hours and trust that where they go is needed for the evolution of their soul.

I am not here to tell you that love is easy. Sometimes tough love is what is needed, and as we trust completely in that power within, we can rise up and be that unconditional love that cannot for a moment join in with the insanity of the ego mind. Can we be committed to listening deeply to spirit leading us to express the truth and uncover the cloudy insane mind that constantly keeps us imprisoned in a life that is co-dependent and disempowering?

Love is within us and it is not seen with the physical eye. It is expressed through our giving, our kindness and our compassionate hearts. Sometimes it is hidden and covered up by lies, where guilt and shame keep us separate from the world we knew as children. Yet through it all, love cannot be destroyed for it is what is real. Yet in our collective and individual fear we do not feel love. Instead this fear is expressed as anger, disease, pain, addiction, selfishness, and all kinds of violence to ourselves or another.

Life is hard sometimes and without love we live in hell, and we journey into darkness so deep inside that the only way out is to get down on our knees when our negativity takes over and our addiction to pain is unbearable. This is where I came to when I had no control over the choices of my son. I got down on my knees and asked God to take him into his loving embrace. I did not feel an unimaginable peace come over me. I felt myself cracking wide open into every emotion and scary feeling of being vulnerable. This is where I loved him enough to trust that God knows more than I could ever know. Here is where the unknown brought me to a deeper commitment to myself. I had to take magnificent care of myself and know that my life depended upon it. To rise up from the ashes of my past and see that the light of spirit could shine through my words and my expression as I would be used like never before.

Countless times I could stand in this communion with my God to help a client, but now I had to be the one to take the hand of spirit to lead me out of my darkness. As the angel of death was walking close by with my son, I knew it was not up to me, but love, true love would conquer all. I did not know what the outcome would be, yet hand and hand my strength was deeply rooted in that which never left. I was the one that left God or feared that I was not worthy. Maybe now was the moment I grew up and allowed my wounded child to be held in the most loving way as spirit took over my life and touched my son with the truth that there is no guilt. The blocks were removed and dissolved in a holy moment where I could trust that the core of another was innocent and pure and fully able to choose life.

As my son has written in one of his original songs titled Mama, "You are the foundation of my castle," as he remembers the belongingness of where he comes from. He could now listen to his own songs that continue to speak to him until he embraces his own empowerment to the truth that he is valued beyond words.

He just left for a walk about to travel into the darkest places within. In this place he now is beginning to face the true realities of life. This is the greatest gift for all of us, to take care of ourselves and return to the sacred life that we have been given. To be ourselves and to take the torch that has been passed down through generations. To know that no matter what, God has not forsaken us.

As we feel our own challenges in our personal lives, we can gather and learn what is real. We remember that we are not alone and love does prevail. Moment by moment we can step into our greatness and be the light that shines upon our path reminding us that even through all of the darkness that this world can be, we return to the truth that continues to set us free. Even when we distrust love, it's finding our way back in faith and hope that uncovers the layers that bring us to trust. We are loved and we can be the love for our own self and then, and only then can we be the servant to help the world remember how precious life is.

Through these challenges that I have been faced with, I was humbled and brought to my knees knowing that without God I am nothing. With my heart now wide open I see the miracles that have touched my family and opened us all to what is most important. My son has risen up through the darkness and is beginning to choose life. One day at a time as we all walk hand in hand with faith and hope.

As a mother, I stand with all parents as we learn to take care of ourselves so that we can love our children unconditionally. This is true love as we shift from fear and into the truth that we are a child of God, worthy and loved.



Tuesday, January 1, 2013

A message of LOVE from Frannie


How blessed I am to be on this beautiful earth with you!
I believe that this day is a new beginning for us all as we join in our grateful hearts. With all of the hardships and challenges that are all around us, let us breathe in right now and touch the peace that lives within our sacred heart. Let us begin the journey inward and take the hand of spirit that leads us out of suffering. Our unique self is the vessel for God to bring this joy into the world. We do not have to wait for our bank accounts to be full or our bodies to be healed. We can take this moment to reach into the quiet place where the mind can stop its endless chatter and allow the precious moment of being here to be your focus. There is nothing more valuable than YOU. You are the image of your creator and as you sit in the seat of Self, you can look around and see all that life has brought you. This moment is the stepping stone into the next moment. Be here now and know that you are the expression of this deep love that God is. You can allow yourself to move now into your world from the inside to the outside. Your choice to hang out in this magnificent heart that is fully alive in love will never die. You are the one to choose to live true to this beautiful expression of being yourself. Let us hug all the children and thank them for reminding us to rise up today and take magnificent care of ourselves so that we can share this food that gives life. We are the heart of a peaceful world and let us rejoice in this awakening where no one is separate from us in any way. Today is the day to be all that we came here to be.
Namaste,
Frannie