Sunday, April 19, 2015

Intoxicated With Life!

Three decades ago I was diagnosed with an illness called Environmental sensitivities. One breath of a toxic substance would put me into a catatonic state and then I would be bed ridden for days. I was told that if I didn't change my lifestyle, I would have a year and a half to live. For me, I had no other place to go but within. This was the journey that took me inside to release all of the toxicity that was calling for my attention.  
  
Breath by breath, step by step, I learned how to listen inside to a voice that called me to show up for myself; I learned how to surrender to a guidance that showed me true love. I cleansed and let go. This love of self brought me into alignment with my inner source. Strengthened by this reconnection, I began to reclaim my true power that became my health of body and mind. Here I let go of the false self and slowly began to live more authentically. This journey continues to humble me daily. 
  
My commitment to living from the inside to the outside has changed me forever. Meditation is a tool that moves me mindfully into my every moment. With self-acceptance I stay focused within as I turn my gaze outward to receive this incredible life that gives and gives unconditionally. It is our birthright to receive this life that has been given as we learn to receive ourselves without judgment. 
 
Unconditional love is the greatest gift we give to ourselves. Can we accept and love ourselves no matter what the conditions are in the external world? Can we remember not to be afraid of these internal feelings that are only frightening when we repress them? 
  
After my husband transitioned, I walked back into my home where everything was a reminder of loss and I let myself feel everything. I was filled with sorrow and didn't think I could ever experience joy again. 
  
Death of a loved one demands your attention to step into dark places that we learned to avoid. Here is where you must accept the hardest unacceptable parts beyond your imaginings. But here in the deepest and darkest valleys inside there is an emptiness so silent that truth does eventually emerge. True love is the divine force that is ever present. This love within never dies and the greatest miracle is allowing it in again and again. Getting out into the world and sharing this feeling is powerful and life changing. 
  
Each of us is unique and precious. We all have our own journey through life's challenges. Maybe today you will walk out into your world with the belief that all is possible and hold the vision in your heart for another as you share in this intoxicating life that gives from the inside.   
 
Be still and breathe into this moment where you awaken to the beauty that illuminates you from the inside. 
Be aware of what is present within as you accept yourself just as you are. 
How worthy you are to be held in this presence that loves you unconditionally.
Give yourself to this moment and allow the healing waters that flow through you to release you from the past.
Let go of what cannot serve you as you accept the truth that moves through your heart this day.
You are a child of God, worthy to be loved and to love.
Today is filled with promise as you give yourself to the moment. 
Stay here and drink yourself in as you are filled with the spirit of life that moves through you with or without your conscious connection. 
This love is in all creation and as you join within, you are joined with all. 
Let go of who you think you are and allow yourself to be fully here. 
You are not the coverings you wear. 
You are not the credentials or diplomas.
You are not your mistakes or your pains. 
You are the one that is connected to a presence that gives life. 
This power would never take away from anyone, it gives from its fullness and shares in the eternal presence of the divine. 
This place of well being is in the center of your heart as you receive yourself fully. 
Every part of you is worthy of love and acceptance. 
Every part of you is here in the center of being you. 
Be yourself! 
Now, fully receive the gift of this beautiful life that is the beloved. 
You are incredible. 
This life that lives within you and all around you inspires and creates. 
Move into your world, open your eyes and stay right here giving and receiving this love that has no conditions. 
Now move from the inside to the outside and allow this light to illuminate through your living. 
You are free to be fully here, intoxicated with the beauty of love divine that is reflected in the world that surrounds you. 
Blessed Be